This is me – Imperfect

“A day without smiling or laughing, is a day wasted

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The quote above is literally something someone told me, ever since I heard it, I choose not to waste my days. There are bad moments within a day but for the whole day I think it is possible to find at least one thing to smile about, even if it seems minute.

The title says This is me, yet I chose to showcase these gorgeous people who are all around me (more at the very bottom of the post – aesthetic vibes – too many pics ). If the question is why then the answer is, “Umuntu ngumuntu ngabantu” – translates to “I am because we are”. I could list a bunch of things to describe who I am, but a large part of who I am is due to the influence of those I choose to surround myself with. And these friends and family put a smile on my face. Sometimes I am challenged. Sometimes I need comforting and encouragement and this is where I turn. This is where I gather my strength, my stress relief, my joy, and my goofiness sometimes.

You know when people say “Tell me about yourself …” I seem to fail every time because I am never sure what to tell. I don’t know, I am just me. I laugh at myself a lot. I do weird things like eating cupcakes from the bottom up (don’t judge). I like to be in my own world sometimes, as in I have full blown conversations with myself and I win and lose at the same time. I like to read books in different genres. I like being around people who accept me but also I like to be with myself just to figure out where I am at. There is just so much to say yet when I am asked, I go blank, maybe this video can do me some justice …

I hope that helped. By the way, do press follow at the bottom of this post 😉

Some things about me that are hardly spoken of out loud, are the bunch of insecurities that I have. Am I good enough to do this job? Am I good enough to achieve that goal? What makes me think that I even can? – They call it Imposter Syndrome, meaning when I do get it done, I still don’t think it was me. I wonder, am I ever going to be loved one day by someone special? – People ask me often, “how are you [still] single?” I do not know the answer, but my ‘brush-it-off’ response is, “Nobody likes me like that …” Maybe it is me, I don’t like me like that – hard truths. Every thing I do from my heart I want it to be a success, but the voices in my head do not always agree. The list could go on forever ranging from beauty to intelligence and capabilities etc.

The thing is I am not perfect. It is just too tiring to even try being perfect, so I do not think anyone should be and we should be perfectly okay with not being perfect. All we can do is be unique which is better than perfect, because zero effort is required and there is only one you. I hope one day the best parts of myself can trump the insecurities I have.

There is a song that says there is always going to be that someone who is just more than … in whatever aspect. But when someone tells you something good about you it makes you feel a little bit better even if it is for a little while.

Right now if you are seeing someone else and something “more than … you” – prettier, smarter, luckier etc. I want to be that person who makes you feel a little better. If you want you can replace the “You are’ with “I am”

Affirmations

You are going to be a success. You are not perfect but you are most definitely unique. You are weird in the best of ways. You are spectacular. You are brilliant. You are loved and you are worthy of love. You are #Royalty!

You are not alone in how you feel. But if you’ll try to view yourself in a positive light, I will do the same.

Let’s be #Royalty